Running in circles?
i feel like i have a lot of great stuff in my head but i can't get any of it out. and even when i try it just sounds silly or pathetic. and i know that this kind of self loathing is an even worse cleshe then being an aspiring wirter in NYC. and i realy hope i'm not just bitching about how i feel untalented and usless to get sympathy from my friends because if i have reached that level of tacky cleshe i realy might have to kill my self.
ok so that was sad.
lets move on
i lack focus. i need to pick and idea/project and see it through or i'm going to be working at BN for the rest of my life and that is just not a happy prospect.
now this is much easyier said then done. and i'm not going to lie and say that i know i can do it but i realy am going to try. and i know that i have alot of support, i just need to get off of my mental ass and do something.